hello, thankyou firstly for reading my post. i do have to admit i half think im crazy, im scared and i have noone to tell.

ok here goes since i was little i had very strange 'dreams' where people would come visit me and id chat with them most of the night. when i woke i couldnt remember what they had said but could remember if i was afriad or not. most nights i would scream the house down. night terrors?? so ive been telling myself. when i got a little older i could sense things off people and if something good or bad would happen. i hardly ever spoke of it though - i was already named a witch, strange and a weirdo. being younger i found it hard to be friends with other children.

growing up the dreams never stoped, and the only good nights sleep ive had is through strong sleeping pills and if ive gotten drunk - lol.
but for now im not a drunk.

im 25 now and i have 3 children (one of them suspected to be on the autisic spectrum) and for a while things calmed down. but now everythings back - stronger. when i go out i hear what people are thinking when they are speaking to me. im seeing things when im awake. my dreams are very intense - just last night two boys one arould 13 and one a little older sat on my bed and told me i must be dead because i could see them. this scared me half to death and i came downstairs to my patner and asked him if i wasnt dead and i touched him. i scared him too.

i had to post this and would love to hear what others have to say, maybe you can tell me if im crazy. thankyou from becky

Hi Becky.

I just had to reply as you made me chuckle. It seems that the board is full of questions & nobody is answering.

I do not claim to be the best medium in the world & I still have a long way to go, but i have to relate to your dreams & situations.

A night terror, gosh they are really frightening arnt they, are actually astral catalepsy (the soul entering or leaving the body). This is when we (our souls) are travelling when the physical body is resting (sleeping). If you have a gift then it will get stronger the dream process i mean, you may even see your soul trying to leave the body, OBE's & you may even wake when the soul is entering back into the body & look down at your body and it will go into spasms, not often but it has happened to me. Also when you are dropping off you may get sensations when the soul is leaving of how do you desribe it, you dont, you will just know, it has scared me so much in the past aswell & sometimes still does, we are human and have an ego! Now i just try to let it ride or tell myself to get back in i need to sleep not play. I tend to know when i have been travelling now as i wake up knackered & have vivid dreams usually in colour. So remember it is nothing to be afriad of.

You might also want to do some research on crystal or indigo children with your little one.

You might also be fearing to much, hey we all do i am sorry say that, but when something out of the ordinary (what is ordinary) happens to us it gets a reaction and that at the beginning is usually fear, which is the worst thing you can do, you will block communication from them & your imagination will have a party.

When you sense spirit, talk to them, if you see them ask them what they want, if they are invading you, tell them to sod off in a very polite way. Easier said than done, but as you get stronger you will manage it better. It drove me nuts at the beginning & i had to go to a shrink as i thought i was going insane & sometimes i have to control that imagination of mine.

What is tricky with it all is learning how to stay grounded with it & trying to live your life like an ordinary person. But once those vibrations are lifting you will find yourself becoming frustrated with yourself as you are different because you are on a different wave band as such. You will find that your life changes and turns upside down, your friends change, you see people differently, colours are more vivid when completely open, your job may change, even sometimes your partner! The lists are endless with what happens, never mind the whoohooo stuff.

Relax enjoy and trust in yourself, know that you are always protected & in my eyes anyway, it may differ with others, nothing in the spirit world can harm you.. It can be damn right scary at first & still is, sorry i have to chuckle because there really is nothing to fear apart from our ego, but believe me i am still alive & kicking strong & so are many other amazing mediums out there in the world.

Let me put it in simpler terms, a medium is just gifted to be able to see what is already in front of our eyes & thats means everyone living on the earth plane including animals, have they been harmed?!? No.. What makes you think you are going to be harmed?!? Hence the fear, we fear because it is something out of the ordinary, so where the actual fear is coming from is the ego. hmm that wasnt so simple, but think about it.. Another gift you will get, you find it hard speaking normal english.. lol

Love.

Rach.x

Hi Rachel,

It does appear that there are loads of posts unanswered on this forum, however, this wasn't the case. It's apparent that when the various sites have been integrated together, there have been many posts lost along the way. I for one, actually responded to this post, when it was originally created. I will go into my profile and copy and paste the response I made.

All the best,

Danny