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I was digging through some of my old writings this morning and found this that I wrote a couple of years ago. It brought a smile to my face. I hope someone finds it interesting. Smiley
I started out on my path about four and a half years ago - in fact, it'll be exactly that next week. Trust me when I say that my early attempts at meditation were pathetic! They would be less than five minutes long and my mind would still be running riot! It took a great deal of time and sustained effort to get to any sort of level with it. Even now, depending on what's going on in my life, and trust me there's been a hell of a lot lately, I sometimes struggle to effectively calm my mind. Sometimes my meditations are profound and I'm in there for up to an hour, and others I'm in there for twenty mins or so and I don't have a lot, if anything to report. My guide asked me some time ago to always try and spend a little time every day in the silence (meditation). I've always tried to do this. I'll be honest, there's the odd day that I've not been able to manage it, but in the main, I keep my promise to my guide...
There have been many times when I've felt like giving up over the last four years.This isn't an easy path to follow at times, but tell me anything that's worthwhile that's easy? Whenever I have spat the dummy out, then my guides have always gently and lovingly placed me back on my path with a renewed sense of purpose and spring in my step. Whenever things became overwhelming emotionally, which trust me has happened many times over the last four years ( I never used to do crying before I started mediumship development), spirit never leave you comfortless. I've had SO MUCH emotional support from spirit in these last years... It's incredible!
To condense things somewhat.... As soon as I started out on my path, I commenced my meditation programme. For long periods of time I wouldn't receive much, but would always get rewards for all my efforts. Little bits of communication and many 'carrots' dangled to keep me moving forward.
After 18 mths, I joined a development class and felt way out of my depth. It felt like everybody was more able than I was. To add to my frustration, my Teacher kept saying that I was able to give messages during circle work. I started to despair with myself, when I repeatedly failed to be able to come up with the goods, whilst others around me 'flew.' It was on the very last week of the course (week 10) that I finally was able to give off a little message. I was ecstatic! It made me realise that I had been getting in my own way - by doubting and putting myself down, I was pushing away my talents. After this time, things went quiet again for a few weeks or so. I eventually met up with my Teacher again and she asked me to come on board with her, Teaching other mediums. I said
"with the greatest of respect, you're mad. How can I teach anybody how to do this when I can't even do it yet myself?" She told me that I could, but I was yet to believe that. Sometime later she bought me a set of tarot cards and said, "you'll need these." I told her that I didn't know the first thing about tarot cards, and she said that didn't matter. I tried to use the cards and failed miserably. I felt like a fake and rang my Teacher with a view to ending this madness. She told me to get the cards and gave me a wee bit of a pep talk and said, " now read me." Nervously I fumbled my way through the first card and she confirmed my waffle, which I was convinced that I was making all up, or that she was just saying that it was true to make me feel better, but I kept going, after about 40 mins of working psychically, the energy completely changed and her Father who had passed away, some months earlier came in. We spent the next two hours holding a three way conversation. I felt like an old pro who had been doing it all of his life. I will never forget that reading, or my Teacher, she gave me much. Some of the techniques I pass on are from her. The next day she sent me a text and said that the reading I had given her was astounding...! I don't tell you this story to boast. There is a point to it...
After this, I thought: "I've made it"! I had huge plans to start readings regularly. I was going to quit my jobs and do this professionally... but oh spirit had other ideas. My guide advised me not to do so. In reality, I wasn't able to perform anything like as well as that for some time. I went back to being shut down, or just receiving little snippets for people from time to time. I've only recently learnt that spirit wanted to show me what I was capable of, so I would start to believe in myself more. I wasn't yet strong enough to sustain that level of service.
Mediumship/spiritual growth is a process which involves so many variables. ( I have to wrap this up now. Tessa has to get onto the PC soon ) You have to integrate it all into your lifestyle, your physical body has to adjust and reset itself to match your increasing vibration. That is why I've had to endure my latest illness. It was all part of the ascension process, my body had to flush out the old to make room for the new and higher vibration. Trust me when I say, I thought I was dying!
The point to all this, is to say that you have much to look forward to;
Establishing a firm connection with your Guide(s)
Being told your life's purpose and contribution to the planet, the joy of living your true nature and the fulfillment of helping others realise their true potential..... and so much more!!
I once read that once you embrace your spiritual path, then fasten your seat belt and get ready for the ride of your life..... Look at me for God's sake...... I'm now living in Canada, with the Woman of my dreams... (edit. I'm back in the UK now). I was told yesterday in meditation that our business will be hugely successful and that we'll help and inspire many souls on their journeys...
If you work on your life's purpose, then you'll never have to work a day of your life, because it's such a joy!
I hope this gives you some insight into my own development and some of the difficulties I've encountered.
I would like any aspiring medium to remember, that you can and will get to where you want to be.
Never give up on spirit, for they truly are the magic beneath your wings. They always, without exception, have your best intentions at heart.
Wow have I waffled on today!?
I feel thoroughly inspired and hope you do too.
All my love,
Danny
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but you really got me thinking about them when you got to make that link..amazing!
