right, where to start. I'm completely new to this, and to the understanding of certain feeling i have been feeling all my life. I have always felt 'different' and that i have a purpose in life, but i didnt quite know what that was. I have always fely energies around my person, these coming from inanimate object, plant, animal other humans and more intrestingly from sources i can not see. I have also felt many seperate feelings that i have not connected until now. These include pressure in the centre/top of my head, hearing guiding thoughts (that little voice lol), confussion, never feeling like im completely alone, amazing amounts of energy/pain in and around my solar plexus, i've felt that i can heal myself and im never ill, i have also managed to heal pretty nasty wounds in unbelivably short amount of time (normally 3 days??), i feel as if i know things and pretty often have psychic moments. I have recently been exploring the world of spirituality, which is something ive always been drawn. I have always belived in the afterlife and i have had several contacts, in the form of telepathy from ppl i have known that have passed away.

All this has led to an extremely confussing life up until now, when everything that has happened is seemingly connected. I have recently read that some ppl suffer from what is known as a "spiritual emergency" and that the symptoms are pretty much like what i have been experiencing. I am ever the doubter and sometime feel like im going mad, infact growing up in my teenage years i really felt like i was mentally disturbed and kept most of my feelings to myself for fear of being 'labelled', locked up and doped up. (said in a smiling kind of way). Also i truly belive we are not alone and that we all have the abilty to contact and be contacted from spirits, but we have to be tuned into the right frequency. I am more than willing to except what is happenin and what is about to happen but for some reason i hold a tremendous amount of fear and i belive this to blocking my way... why is thi? is this natural? and beliving that the spirit is full of unconditional love, why should i be so frightened..

sorry to go on a bit, but im hoping that somewhere out there, there is someone who has expereined the same or that is so far progressed that they can help guide me and maybe unblock and rid my fears so i can trulydiscover who i am and what my purpose is..